John 13: 36-38
Simon Peter said to him, “Lord, where are you going?” Jesus answered him, “where I am going you cannot follow me now, but you will follow afterward.” Peter said to him, “Lord, why can I not follow you now? I will lay down my life for you.” Jesus answered, “Will you lay down your life for me? Truly, truly, I say to you, the rooster will not crow till you have denied me three times.
I’m not sure if you guys fall into this, but I find myself often attempting to make promises or bargains with God, when even I doubt I will
follow through on them. I know this is silly intellectually but don’t get to see it this blatantly illustrated. I think in this case Peter really did believe he would lay down his life for Christ but a mix of fear in the moment and reliance upon self got the better of him that very night. This should be a call to humility but also exciting in that God still used Peter in such incredible ways to start the church. God’s love and use for us is not dependent upon our batting percentage when he he sends us opportunities and through our failures he teaches us new things, and even pure motives in self-reliance can lead to embarrassing sinful situations. With finals approaching and holding value based measurements I think it’s important to remember we’re not here to make promises to God or earn things for God, but rather live life in dependance on him seeking to make the most of the opportunities we’re given.